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So many thoughts and emotions consume me. I have to wonder if it's normal. Then I snap back to reality and realize I'm so damn lucky to feel this way.

I'm so in love, it's disguting. Sometimes I wish I wasn't. It would be easier if I didn't have someone to love and miss so much. Sometimes I think it's easier not to feel so fragile and dependent on love, but then I realize I'm lucky to be this consumed by it. It's scary though, to love someone so much. To know, without that ONE person, you would never feel completely satisfied. I just wish I didn't have to share him with the Marine Corp.

People get sick of me proclaiming my love and devotion for him, and for my two children, but they consume my every thought, the fullfil my heart and soul. It's not that I"m "dependent" on those three, but they definitely fullfil my life. They complete my entire being, they're my reasoning for living. Everything I do, is for them. It may not be YOUR way of living, but I'm completely content knowing it is MY way of life. And I'm not ashamed to admit it, thats what makes me different from you.

I'm sorry if you aren't satisified and content with your life, it doesn't mean everyone else should withold their feelings. I am proud of who I am, the mother and wife I have become. And if you can't be happy for us, and appreciate where our lives have taken us, then thats you're problem, not ours.

I miss my husband terribly, more so then usual. I feel like everytime I say I "miss him" I end up saying "more then usual". So maybe I miss him more and more with each day that passes, but really can you blame me?  He's my best friend. So when he leaves, my best friend leaves. A part of me is missing and it's him.

Ironically, somehow with each time we have to say "I'll see you later" I end up falling more in love with him, then the weekend we met. I'm not even sure how it's possible, after so much time and distance that passes, that I can fall more in love with this person, but time and time again, he proves himself to me. To be this amazing, person. To be this remarkable, honorable, respectful, loyal, husband and father.

I'm not going to pretend like 7 years of marriage has been easy, because I promise you this, it hasn't been. Anyone who tells you their marriage is "perfect" is a liar. We've been through our ups and downs, trails and tribulations, we've built mountains that MUST be climbed. And as long as the love and fire still exsist, you can over come any obstacle thats thrown your way. No marriage is perfect, I can assure you that. But you can get through it like anything else. You must water your garden, remember that.

Basically I am happy in life, in marriage, and in parenthood. And I can't wait to see where the rest of my life takes me.