Really?

What the hell is wrong with me? I've done everything in my power to keep it together, but I have to be honest, I just want to cry. I want to let it ALL out, and be done with it. I have all these built up emotions, all this anxiety that I've tried to keep all in and to myself, but in all honesty I just want to CRY  it all out. But I can't. The hurt is there, the sadness & emptiness is there, so why, why on earth can it not come out? Have i become numb, have I become immune to this feeling? That can't even be possible, cause God knows I just want to rip out've this exterior.

I have one thing to blame & thank at the same time, thats my friends who have become my family. So thank you lovely ladies who make each day that passes THAT much easier on the heart and soul!