Hurts to Love like this;

I really shouldn't be ashamed of it.

I have this want, need and desire to make everyone "think" I can do it all,

because I'm afraid of being judged or critisized when I fall short.

But no one is perfect.

I've got a lot going on-of course no one really knows,

because either you don't care to ask, or I don't care to share.

Either way, nobodies perfect.

No one can take on all the responibilites of one person, and handle it completely well.

I've had all sorts of mixed emotions lately,

enough to make me feel like a complete psycho path! But given the circumstances,

people coming and going,

and realizing who my real friends are,

I think it's completely acceptable to be going through this, and dealing with it the way I've been.

I did finally come to terms with certain things,

I actually feel really much relieved.

I believed most of my emotions to be based on that situation, but in all actuality,

I think it's much bigger then that. 

In all honesty, I just want my best friend home. I'm sick of being without.

Sick of sleeping alone.

Sick of hugging my pillow.

Sick of not being able to turn to him, any time of the day, and just TALK.

Talk about pure nonsense,

And my God, would it kill someone to just take me and HUG me tight.

I know I"m not an affectionate person, unless it's my husband or kids,

but sometimes we just need someone to hold us, and let us know we're loved.

I miss my husband completely, he is my center gravity.